What should i do?...

To be honest, i don know what to do with my life...

deep in my heart i love drawing, art & craft & design

but what can i do with it?

I want to do something, that is concern with my interest.

Hmmm...

My tears start to flow down....

Whenever I heard Dragon Ball songs, my tears will start to come out....

Awwww you might think im crazy

XD

Soon end of 2011

Soon end of 2011,

Hmm...what did i do this year?

Nothing much, besides meeting with new friends, and love?

and my stupid skin problem going up and down,

i hope i could just reborn with new body and skin.

I feel like changing my job...

The reason?

Because i hate the environment, i think it make my skin go worst,

and i don like smoking smell. Whenever i got to stay back, i got to smell all

those smoking smell, OMG...haiz, i never smoke but i been smoking second hand

smoker for 1 year plus, T_T

I cant believe my lady boss can take it when she is pregnant.

@.@

i wonder she why she wanna risk like this, maybe she is boring at home,

or she is use to it being around all those cigaret smell. Well no comment.

I always say i won find a bf that smoke,

and my dad say " In my dream "

and i told him i did found a guy, my Latino bf don smoke and drink,

and my dad say is " Bullshit, and in their country smoking and drinking is like a cultural to them,

don just believe what people told you, and you din even know him in real life "

T_T

Well i cant really blame my dad, even myself don really believe XD

he knew that too, that is hard for me to believe.

Hehe, well i think the only way to know all the truth is to get to know him more in

person.

Ok back to my job part, and 1 more reason is i got to stay back for most of

the holiday season, =( whats more i don even get pay for it.

Usually i stay till 9pm something i also don get pay.

My pay is low... and im doing multitask...

Im planning to leave end of this year, and i hope to change different working

environment.

Hmmm

I want to do something new, something special,

i want to feel happiness.

I hope next year is a good year, a lucky year for me.

I hope my wishes will come true.

I really hope that i won let my parents down,

and hurt myself...

I hope my instinct is correct about this....

Backstreet Boys - Drowning

I hope this is real...

I hope all this is real....and wont get hurt...

Frustrated!!!

Frustrated!!! Frustrated!!! Frustrated!!!

Haizzzz.....

I need to let it out...or else i gonna explode...

I got to be strong...

I got to be strong...

I hope i don fail...